once i get through these stupid college tours my summer will be awesome. alex is picking me up from the airport and i’ve missed him a lot and i haven’t seen him since january so that will be nice. then the next day im picking sarah up and were going to our first orientation at the animal shelter. then that same day im picking up my fucking amazing sister from the airport and i cant fucking wait.

and yet someone writes on his wall or some girl likes on of his photos and i’m jealous. i feel like i’m missing out on his life. i’m too far away. i know he misses me too and i should stop worrying so much and just live my life, but it’s going to take longer than this to let go and that just sucks.  i don’t want to go through my summer missing him like last year. i dont wan’t to repeat that mistake. i want to live my life and party it up and do the shit i’ve always fucking wanted to do but never had the balls. so thats what i’m going to do. i have a great start to summer, and i’m going to talk to him occasionally but really try and let this shit go.

heres to summer, everyone ;)

Serve God, love me and mend
This is not the end
Lived unbruised, we are friends
And I’m sorry
I’m sorry

Sigh no more, no more
One foot in sea, one on shore
My heart was never pure
You know me
You know me

But man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing

Love; it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be

There is a design, an alignment to cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be

Love; it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be

There is a design, an alignment to cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be

Love; it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be

And there is a design, an alignment to cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be

you’ve all meant more to me than i could possibly describe

oh how fabulous it is when you find out that he’s been with someone else for a while now. brb eating my feelings and listening to tswift

greeeaaaattttt now i know what i’m competing with